Okay so I can't be having the time of my life the whole time I am here. And if this blog is really about me and my journey then I have to include the not so awesome parts.
I woke up this morning feeling not quite right. I didn't feel like getting out of bed, but I did. I decided that I was going to take the bus to a town called Aylesbury, about 30 minutes from Thame. I figured I would look around and see what kind of shopping I could find, plus I have a few more things that I want to get. I was hoping to come upon an ASDA (which is part of the Walmart group).
I showered, made my coffee. Got ready and had some breakfast. I left for the bus still feeling... well sad for myself. I met a nice lady on the bus who told me about Thame and she even showed me how to get to the main street in Aylesbury. I walked through the mall and I happened to find a shop that makes sweets that my aunt has been telling me about. So I got excited! I went in and bought some of the toffee. I thought alright, it is looking up! I walked out onto the streets and just started walking because I had no idea where I was going. The whole time I was not feeling it, I could feel that my face did not have the usual perma-grin that it has had for the most part since I got here. I even thought buying some clothes would help. But no, even though I did find some sweet deals. Like a vest for 8 pounds which isn't even $16. Two pairs of jeans for 25 pounds. I walked around some more and realized that there was no point me being there if I wasn't enjoying it.
I got back on the bus and headed home. When I walked into my place I went directly up the stairs dumped my stuff at the top. And crawled into bed. Maybe a nap would help. I slept for about 45 minutes and here I am still in bed, surrounded by junk food and not really feeling it still. You know it is true about human contact being truly important. It can really make a difference in how someone feels. I am craving a good meaningful hug right now!
I even have plans for tonight, I am going to a local pub with some girls from work. I should be looking forward to that. I am sure that is what I need! I am hoping in the next 3 hours I can pull my head out of my a** and go out for a good time.
Sorry for the realness of my post today, but I needed someone to talk to and who else better than those that are joining me virtually on my journey!
